hari penuh emosi

totally true - thats what sinar pagi said, and thats how i felt this morning and actually it started late last night.

it actually not to say full of emotion but rather emotionless. i was just like reading and reading it over and over again and could not believe my eyes that finally it hit me.

i ve suspected it like a few months back (2/3 months), but never even in my dream that it IS REALLY HAPPENING TO OUR LIVES.

maybe this is a WAKEUP call for me. Maybe ALLAH wants to send me a REALLY STRONG and HARD signal, that the past recent years i ve been neglecting my duties as a good and obedient muslim. solat mana yang sempat, mengaji amat jarang, lebihkan kerja and meeting. my life revolves around my work, kids and hubby, family thingings. tidak menjaga solat, tidak khusyuk, semua nak cepat jek. and puasa. yes, that's another task that i havent completed and ramadhan is only round the corner.


well, what should i say. i know that this is surely going to happen. and should be totally mentally prepared for this. but knowing kita sebagai manusia yang lemah, kadang2 tidak dapt menerima kenyataan hidup. i always reminding my self, its not WHO but WHEN. so honestly thank you for sharing the best of 9 years (or 10 yrs) of your life with me. thank you for your compassionate love,patient and keep up with mad woman like me. i dont blame you 100% for wahtever happening in our life and conciously know that i m also the gultiy party... dear ALLAH, i dont know how much longer i can keep hanging on this, but i ll try (but not wholeheartedly).

i still have my kids, my parents, my siblings and my friends that i know will support me in my hardest and roughest time. dear my adik2.... i need your support even GREATER now, sis and bros and i know i can count on you.

my last note today ....... 'sambil mata redup dihembus angin pagi...gitu...'

100 hari pm d picc

kat picc ni. Waiting for najib to meet all the civil servant. Convey msg 100 hari.

Larian dan kasut baru

ini dah habis larian, dapat towel, dan dah nak gerak balik

running shoes abang

running shoes adik

ini pun gambar masa sampai

Hmm..punyalah semangat nya wkh jr nak masuk larian AD2009 hari sabtu lepas. Cikgu dia suruh tunggu pukul 7.30 pagi, dia bagi tau pukul 6.30 dah kena ada kat parking. Terkocoh2 lah kita bangun, mengalahkan nak pegi sekolah pagi pulak. Bila call cikgu dia kul 6.45, eh eh..cikgu dia tengah mandi..sabor je lah...

So dlm 7.30 cikgu dia sampai dan bg nombor, dan dia ikut berlari dgn budak2 sekolah rendah. ikutkan penaja, kategori FUn Run sejauh 3.3 km. bair betul 3.3 nih..mau pengsan buidak2 sekolah ni.

So mummy dan cik totet pun sama2 lah support abang dia. oleh kerana ada 3 pelepasan maka ada 3 arrival. kami dok tunggu lah kat finishing line kategori dewasa, tengok budak sekolah tak sampai2 lagi... tanya yg jaga garisan tu, dia kata finishing line budak2 kat tempat lain..eh ailh2 tengok, dah ada budak yg dah sampai... tunggu punya tunggu si abang tak muncul2... risau jugak kut2 dah di angkut dek ambulan... tak lama...tiba lah anak bujang mummy ni. masih steady lagi... dapatlah sijil... tapi tak sempat amik gambar, dr belakang jek. ok lah jugak tu.

i am so proud of u abang. Dan berjanji akan support dia sekiranya ada mana2 larian kat PJ lepas ni. mmg confirm boleh join. dan janji jugak ngan dia boleh pi beli running shoes.

so, bila mama dia tanya apa yg dia nak untuk belated birthday dia pun kata nak running shoes adidas/nike (haa..amik ko...takder maknanya bata - power tu kata dia).. so mama dia bg lah rm50 dan aselebihnya kenalah mummy atau papa dia top-up.

setelah berdonggeng-donggeng, hari ahad pegi IOI mall.. di sebelah wing yg baru di extended, adalah adidas shop... sambaq lah satu. cik totet pun dapat jugak...tak pasal2..terobang rm250 - di charge di CC mummy. papa top up rm50.
abih citer..

ini tengah termengah2 masa sampai

ini masa sampai..steady jek kan... pun dr belakang

ini masa mula2 berlepas, dapat snap dr belakang jek

penyakit naik darah - abang i'm sorry

wkh jr 2009

wkh jr 2008

wkh jr 2007

wkh jr 2007

wkh jr 2006

wkh jr 2005

wkh jr 2004


wkh jr 2003

wkh jr 8th birthday fell on sa turday. buat makan2. had a great time with wkh family. siap ada games lagi wpun birthday boy tidur pukul 9, dan games diteruskan tanpa kehadiran birthday boy. mummy dia sakit belakang

ahad, pi kebun cu bang. wpun sakit2 belakang masih terasa.

isnin - sekolah cam biasa. this is one of the rare days where their papa came back early ( 7pm), so we dcided to try our luck on transformers. kul 8 gi ala*a*d*, memang takdak tiket. so ended up tengok 17again. bolehlah..

selasa pagi - hanya disebabkan sekecil2 isu, aku dah naik berang dgn wkh jr. bila dah naik darah, mulalah semenya diungkit, sampai kena libas tak pasal2 dgn hanger pagi tadi. pastu sampai ke sekolah, kena bebelan maut pulak dr maknya. kesian nya anak aku, dpat mak yg bad tempered cam aku. everytime i lose my temper , terkeluar lah perkataan yg sememangnya tidak langsung dimaksudkan. kesian betullah. adik dia sampai senyap sunyi dalam kereta. siap kena mental torture pulak wkh jr. really pity him la.

aku ni dgn anak2 , kalau baik tu baik sangat, tapi kalau dah naik darah, jd macam hantu pulak. adoiii helpd me. do i need counselling on this? am i one of the parents who physically and mentally abused their children?

pagi ni ada kursus mentor menti pulak, konon2 nya di appoint sbg mentor........ rasa memang langsung tidak layak. anak sendiri pun tak leh dimentor kan, ini nak menti kan orang lain pulak.

ya allah, ampunilah dosa ku terhadap anak2 ku.....